'09's My Birthday Presents <3

From : Abah.

From : Muaz

From : Mera

From : Amin

From : Isyqie

From : Jiwa

From : Jie.

From : Mali.

From : Qila.

Thanks for the gifts guys, I'll treasure 'em. Love ya lots <33

xoxo
Izzy Rozali.

He went without me..

"How long?" I ask looking up the sky.
How long what sweet-heart? He whispers to my ear.
I can feel his hot breath against my neck.
"How long are you planning to stay away from me?" I lay down on my back. Spreading my hair on the watery green grass.
The sky looks so beautiful tonight. Those stars look like diamonds. He giggles.
"You're avoiding my question."
He sighs and gently streaks my cheek, this is not the perfect time to ask.
"Then when?" I urge.
I can feel his fingers intertwine with mine, I'm gone, long gone.
"I'll come with you," I sob.
No! His velvet voice turns cold. Don't you dare. Stay here. Live your life. I want you to be able to live until the end.
"Life is meaningless without you," I cry out, "why did GOD has to take you so early? Why won't he take me too?"
He wipes my tears with his hand, ssshhh, don't cry. We've been through this together. You swear to me to keep on living. I gave you my word didn't I? I'll keep on watching you from the skies above. There are no angels that can replace you in heaven. You were created for me. And just me.
I squeeze his hand tight, "don't go. Please."
He slowly loosen his grip, my time is up. I'll see you tomorrow.
I feel a light kiss on my forehead.
"Don't go!" I plead.
I love you so much, he whispers and lets go of my hand.
I can't feel his presence anymore. My eyes are wet and my chest is aching.
"I LOVE YOU MORE."

Mid-year on rampage!

Can you believe it? Mid-year examination is on the loose! My exams start next week on Wednesday. According to Risi, we'll start with Malay Language I, Civic and Malay Language II. And it continues with other subjects. It's May and it's ending. It'll be June in less than 2 weeks. I feel like I'm floating in time. I can't control it. I can't keep track. Somehow, I'm afraid that I'll loose it. Whatever it is, I'm giving my 110% on this test. Unfortunately, lessons in Form 1 && Form 2 are included. I'm shaking to my bones. Wish me luck. I need to ace them, whatever it takes. I crave for 8As, if possible plus Civic and Art. Until then, good day.

The Eye..

Scary isn't it? It was inspired by a movie 'THE EYE', I'm not sure what's it about but this was re-created by a talented photo editor.

Life is like a MOVIE.

If you are sad - DRAMA
If you are afraid - SUSPENSE
If you are angry - ACTION
When you look at the mirror - HORROR
Now you are smiling - that's COMEDY

Trigger on loose.

Mum keeps on telling me that I have to grow up. Look in others' perspectives. Be more mature.

Mum : This world doesn't revolve around you.
Me :
Mum : Look at me when I'm talking to you.
Me : *moves head
Mum : *sighs* Why do you have to make everything so difficult?
Me :
Mum : I would love to see some reactions.
Me : *shrugs
Mum : I give up! *walks away, slams door*

Works everytime.
I know the world doesn't revolve around me.
It doesn't revolve around anyone.
I just hate being mature.
You have no rooms for mistakes.
You have to be flawless.

I have a weapon you see.
A nine-millimeter Beretta pistol.
I couldn't help myself, it's a beauty.
It's automatic.

If life's being such an ass, you just pull the trigger.
Or you could ask someone to knock you out cold with the barrel.
Or you just choke the bullets.
It's helluva useful and handy.

If you chicken out that moment, then just leave it.
Do it another day.

Put the muzzle in your mouth and lick it while you're at it.
I did.
It smelled bitter.
It tasted bitter.
Like death.
Yeah, fast maybe a bit painful - death.

I didn't get the guts to do it though.
Maybe some other time.
Whatcha gonna do?
It's still in my hands.
I have my fingers curl tightly around the trigger.
It'll only take a little bit of force then - BAM!


I'M GONE.

I wish..

I wish I could fly,
I wish I could touch the sky,
I wish I could see you night and day,
I wish I could be with you far far away.

I wish for more time with you,
I wish someone would give me a clue,
I wish you could see right through my heart,
I wish you wouldn't take it and tear it apart.

I wish sometimes I could die,
I wish when I do you wouldn't cry,
I wish one day you never have to see me like this,
I wish you could just leave me in peace.

I wish you could embrace me like you used to,
I wish we could lay together on the grass due,
I wish for at least a moment to hold your hands,
I wish we could bury our feet in the sand.

I wish..
I wish..
I wish..

END